A secret hiding place

Give up. I have already give up on you. Waiting for a SMS reply seems like waiting for christmas to come. Sometime don't even bother to reply. If you think that sending SMS costs you money, then I can understand then I will prefer you msn me instead of SMS. Butttt....

EVEN MSN YOU ALSO CHOOSE NOT TO REPLY OR REPLY HALF AN HOUR LATER. WTF. You told me that you are very selective bout replying, if the qn is impt, you will reply fast, if trivial, you will take longer and that's your concept of msn. So what does this mean? Means I always ask you stupid qns? All my qns are useless? Then what's the point of msn you for a chat? Now I feel that I am an outsider that your boyfriend? Coz sms you or msn you without a reply means you are ignoring me? Sometime I wonders how difficult to reply a msn message or a sms? It is tiring sometime when I am waiting for your msn reply. You give me a feeling of you will come and sms me or msn me when you need help. I am your lifeline? Need help then coome find me if not just dump me aside. This let me feel I am a fuck up person. Whenever I ask you to sms me, WIll you? NO. Not even a caring message? Or I asking for too much. Or just a normal message will do. So now i just give up to sms or msn you. What's the point of sms or msn you when you dun wan to reply it? Wasting my money and energy rite. When MSN me, you will be reading your manga. Is manga so important than your boyfriend? If manga is better than your boyfriend then just go relationship with manga la. Sometime really feeling quite sian to wait for your sms or msn. Ask you why dun wan to reply my sms, you will say that you are lazy coz your phone has msg limit. Then del then sms me. Why u can reply your friend sms then not mine. Coz you dun think it is necessary to reply coz whenever you need help then you will sms me. Ok lo. Now I will onli reply your sms and not sms you to wait for your reply. Enough of waiting.

Accompany me to Chinatown is it so hard? Chinese new year go Chinatown to buy new year stuff onli wat. When u are celebrating hari raya, did I complain abt going to geylang to walk. I still everyday go there with you to eat. To have the hari raya mood. But now is Chinese new year have we go to Chinatown have a walk? Ans is No. We just went to see the fire cracker and after that you say u are tired then we go home Liao. I am damn disappointed.

Whenever you promise your friend, you WILL do it. No matter what. Even how rush are you, no matter you are busy, no matter what you promise me. You will all push away. Break your friend's promise is not in your dictionary. Even we quarrel, you also dun care, it hurting the relationship, you also dun care. Your friend is always very important in your life. How many time you promise me and how many you have fufil. No. Must say how many times you break my promise? Break my promise is as easy as ABC. You promise me to be just PA and location manager but your friend just need help, you can just break the promise. WTF. She had studied for 3 years. 3 FUCKING YEARS. Dun tell me she dunno how to do art direction? You always say you know wat you doing, and say they are not making use of u. Ya, you are too kind. Kind until you are taken advantage. I am trying not to let you get taken advantage of. But you say i am busybody, and is not my problem and tell me dun care. WTF. Your friend is the best, they won't take advantage of you. You think too lightly. The director should be busy now discussing about shoot but he still can go and meet friend, go and work. WTF. All these and they still can say they are short handed not enough time to do. WTF. How come people can listen to their boyfriend opinion. But you are always stubborn. Sorry for mine such a busybody boyfriend, busybody about your life. I AM SORRY. I just feel that I should protect my girlfriend from getting make use. How I wish to have a girlfriend to go wait for me to knock off from work. Have you ever waited for me to knock off from work? I will go and wait for you to knock off from work no matter what time is it. How come can't I have the same treatment that i give you?

I'm hurt. I feel like a sharp knife just poke into my heart. Care for u but u dun like it. Thn i dun care for u la. i will just shut my fucking mouth and just see u kena taken advantage lo. But dun complain after that.

Who am I to you?
Am I really that boring?
Everytime you will be soo so happy with your friends then when we two are alone, you will tell me that you are tired. What does this mean?
You will always meet your friend to come to school. Why cant i meet you to come to school together?
You will accompany your friend whenever she go. Just accompany awhile will die?
Where is the special feeling?
At every nite, i was hoping for a phone call from you. How sweet isn't it? I was the one who will call you and talk. But talk less than 2 min. you say u are tired. But this 6 mth. Not even one phone call. Coz you are lazy.
On msn, you are busy reading manga. I talk so long msg and you just reply one word or emotion. WTH.
How come your life got so many things that is more impt than me?
SO WHO AM I TO YOU?

What's the point of rushing here and there when you are so tired just to help your friends. Sometime I am with you, I can feel like your body is here but your soul is not there with me. Sometime when I want to go somewhere, you will say that you are tired so you dun want to go. Even though you have promise me to go with me. But pang sei your friends is seemed like a very hard thing for you to do like that but you always pang sei me anytime u want. But have I ever pang sei u? No. Even how tired or how busy I will try not to pang sei u. Does this fair to me? Helping friends got a limit. Sometime your friend is totally making use of u. Not to be crue, sometime they need to learn it from the hard way. If not they won't learn by themself and they will rely u more. But u will defend for ur friend which I have nth to say sometime. You will listen to ur friends than wat I say.

2 weeks. 14 days. 336 hours.

Can you imagine? 336 hours you are not be by my side. I only go hong kong to work for 5 days only leh. So what am I suppose to do in these 2 weeks? WA.. I'm super SIANNNNNNN AHHHHHHHH. Really feel shouting now. WAHHHHHHHHH. I NOW VERYYYY SIANNNNN AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.